Call It Grace with Rev. Dr. Serene Jones / Transcript

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Serene 0:00

That's a great question. And that's a profoundly theological question and it is probably the most important question that anyone can ever ask about faith. I believe and find this in Calvin find it in the faith I grew up in, that the love of God is simply the truth about all of our lives. And that love for each person into the earth is just a given. It is the truth. And there's nothing that we can do to throw that love of God away. Because it's something God gives to us and it's not something we even have to receive in order for it to be true. Now sin comes secondly, in that sin describes all the different ways in which we rebel against God and rebel against, for me, the love the orientation towards human flourishing that we were destined towards. That's sin, but the fact that we sin doesn't cause God to stop loving us. That is the original grace! Which doesn't downplay the magnitude and horror of sin but says that back behind sin is a stable, unceasing rock hard truth and that is God is love and loves us.

Seth Price 1:26

Hello friends! Welcome to the show I'm really excited about this one. Normally I wait a month before I come back to record this little monologue, but man I just got off of the phone with with Reverend Dr. Serene Jones, and I can't stress enough how much I really liked the conversation and her book, Call it Grace. I don't know what I expected, but I know I've been blown away and I've come back to different For some of it off and on, but the the stories are hauntingly true. And I use those words with intention. It's so rare to have someone leave such personal stories on a page in such a public way. And then to do the work of God and theology through those stories, to talk so deeply about how personal experience impacts the way that we live out faith. We touch on racism. We touch on bigotry. And so without any further delay, I'd like to just get into the conversation with a Reverend, Dr. Serene Jones.

Seth Price 2:50

Reverend Dr. Serene Jones, I'm excited to welcome you to the show. I was also very excited. Surprised actually when I received a copy of your book Called it Grace, I had no idea what to expect. But that evening, I read, I think, just the foreword. And then I emailed back now the young lady that said, Hey, reach out to me. And I was like, “Yes. As soon as I'm done, can we please have a talk about this”? And so I'm excited to welcome you to the show.

Serene 3:16

Well, I'm so glad to be in conversation with you. And thanks for reading the book.

Seth Price 3:20

Yeah, well, thanks for writing it. So I have to think much like myself, there will be just people that are unfamiliar with with you. And so I wanted to set some context for the conversation that we're about to have. What would you say is serene Jones in a nutshell? Like what are some of the things in your life from your upbringing, possibly that helped inform the type of person the type of Christian the type of administrator at your school that you are today? What are some of those high points just to give a little background for you?

Serene 3:52

Okay, well, I'm presently president of Union Theological Seminary in the city of New York, which has the reputation of being the pre eminent liberal seminary. It's now an interfaith, increasingly interfaith, and people of wide diversity come here, also because we believe that faith and social justice are connected in profound ways. And that has been the story of my life. I grew up in Oklahoma, on the Christian Church Disciples of Christ, which in New York City no one's ever heard of, but for me, it was pivotal in my formation.

My father, Joe Jones, was himself a theologian by training and an administrator of seminaries and a social activist from the time I can remember. So in the book, I relate how my own understanding of the civil rights movement, my own, growing awareness of racism and white supremacy in the US, was always for me, tied to My faith and the call to struggle against injustice. It takes me through the my family's very intimate connection to the bombing of the Murrah Building in Oklahoma City and in the execution of Timothy McVeigh and it also covers just my midlife crisis of divorce and children and life and death in America today.

Seth Price 5:29

Right a minute ago before I did the you know, the intro there we were talking about how much I enjoyed this reading even the little intro to your book and where you had me, Serene, was you talk about a Woody Guthrie song, this land is your land this land is my land. And honestly, I'm finding that a lot of the songs that I grew up learning in grade school, they get progressively awful.

(laughter from Serene)

And so yeah, that's just the best way I can say that sentence just progressively awful even the stories behind them and you tell a lot of those stories here. But I asked just a smattering of people, just random people here in Central Virginia, what they knew of that song, none of them knew any of it. And most of them just thought it was kind of a glorified jingle. But you talked a bit about, you know, justice and racism and whatnot. I wonder if just for some context for some of the inherented we don't know about kind of topics, just kind of the story behind that song because I didn't know any of that. And that's when I set it down. I was like, “Oh, this, this is gonna be a different kind of book than I thought it was gonna be.”

Serene 6:34

Yeah, well, so I chose to talk about that song because I grew up singing it in church camp in Oklahoma, the verses we're all familiar with, and also, Woody Guthrie and his family grew up next door to my grandfather's family in the small town of Okehma, Oklahoma. So we had shared roots. And I also grew up singing, you know, this land is your land. In singing it with great cheer and happiness. But then one night sitting around the campfire with a bunch of church kids from this progressive church, the singer went on to sing the other two verses that we never hear.

And those verses talk about seeing a sign walking across America called “no trespassing.” And on the other side of that sign was nothing. And then when he got there says “that other side was made for you and me”. And then he says,

and I saw my people standing in the shadow of the steeple, in the hunger lines waiting for food, and I had to ask myself, is this land made for you and me?

And what was so striking to me even at age 11 why hadn't I heard those verses? Why hadn't I heard that bad parts and all of my life has been a process as a person of faith committed to social justice, to not lop off the hard parts of our own histories in our families, but also the hard parts of our American history. The pain and the suffering, the outright cruelty, the history of genocide and chattel slavery, and that's just scratching the surface of the stories about who we are that we don't want to deal with.

Seth Price 8:37

I remember, this came up recently, it was a song I think, last year, maybe the year before last with the whole Colin Kaepernick thing. Everybody was talking about, you know, maybe Francis Scott Key and just different verses to different songs and all these different nursery rhymes. It seemed like everything came up at the same time, and I was amazed at how much had either been changed because it was overtly racist and it was somehow okay. And had been sanitized for today's ears, even if even so many things is and I hadn't thought about it until a few weeks ago. My youngest is three and she came home and said, you know, we sit crisscross applesauce. And I was like, What are you talking about? And I grew up calling it Indian style, which now is wholly inappropriate. And so it makes sense. But I don't even know when that change happened. But I think there's so much there that we don't talk about anywhere, especially not in our families. But I don't know why, because I don't know who would have taught me. Does that make sense?

Serene 9:33

Yes.

Seth Price 9:35

Is that the onus of the Church, of school, of parents? Where do you see that?

Serene 9:38

Well, I mean, I was fortunate in my own family that I had parents that when they made these discoveries themselves, wanted to talk about it. And that doesn't mean that there weren’t things that they themselves were unaware of that they didn't teach me. But I think having family systems that are open to admissions of the gross failures of families and the harshness of family life are much more capable and resilient when it comes to dealing with the changes as a whole culture, our capacity to see the injustices in our culture become more clear. And obviously churches should be a place where you where you learn this. And I was also fortunate that I'm not one of the zillions of people who has a horrible church story to tell. I have good church stories to tell. And the church formed to me in profound ways. And that's where I learned about so many of the lies was in church. I didn't learn the lies in church, I learned about the fact they were lies in church. And in a lot of places churches are the places that teach the lies.

Seth Price 10:53

I want to build off of that. So I shared this quote from your book a few weeks and maybe we could go on social media and It really resonated with a lot of people. And so you said something we so often. And you say I later came to realize, and that's after the backdrop of some of what you just said,

you find the version of theology that our life needs.

And if theology is just you and I talking about God that really made me question, the God that I talked about and see, and the God that we worship just last week on Easter. But also it makes me question the, I guess, rightness is a wrong word, but of people that disagree with what God is and what God stands for. And I find it hard to balance truth with that quote, I guess, as a subtext, does that make sense? So I'm curious how you would handle that because both sides can use it if I want to use you know, you tell a story of asking students to write down after the Bush/Gore election, who what Jesus they brought, you know, those voters who worship and what Jesus they brought to class and whatnot. How do we approach God that way does that make sense?

Serene 12:01

Yeah, no, that's a great question. In writing that I, that we find the God our lives need. I think that all the time, everyone is in trying to figure out who God is and trying to relate to God and feel deeply connected, is going to automatically bring their own challenges, aches, and pains, worries, sufferings, and joys to that questioning. So, in a way, it's impossible for us to escape our own needs, and our own fears, and our own yearnings, when we come to the question of who God is in relation to our life.

That said, I also think that the faith that I grew up with has built into the faith itself this constant call to ask questions about how your own biases are getting in the way of the truth; and how your own life circumstances may be stopping your ability to actually figure out what it means to love in the world. So it's both existentially necessary that we bring ourselves to God and it's also, I think necessary for a healthy faith, to always be questioning those things that we bring to God and how they can distort the story detail.

Seth Price 13:33

So I get this question a lot, as people listening often are going through, I don't like the I find “deconstruction” a little bit violent of a metaphor for faith. But as they're going through, I guess, a crisis of faith. They'll often ask me by email or you know, other other ways, you know, “how do I know when I've asked enough questions? How do I know when I'm at a place that I can healthily look at things and be more whole?”

What would you say to that?

Serene 13:59

Well, if the questions that one is struggling with are in service of becoming whole yourself and also in service of a realization that your own wholeness depends upon the wholeness of the world and seeking to better love and connect with those around you and those suffering. I don't think there's ever too many questions to ask. Questions that are tied to how am I going to make more money, or how am I going to get back at my sister in law, or, you know, are we going to win the football game Friday night? No, those are not those are not worthy questions. But questions about, you know, am I loved and valued despite the history of the harms I may have perpetrated on others? And that's a valid question. And it's worth asking, and it's worth searching for an answer to. And we all ask those questions.

Seth Price 14:56

That's how you know that you're from the plains because inherently when you say football, most people think NFL or college. But then you quickly pivoted right back to Friday night, which is near and dear to my hearts high school football is, is probably the be all end all from the part of the country that we're from. (laughter from both)

I mean, it's it's popular here, you know, in the East Coast, but by no means is it the religion is probably a good metaphor for where I'm from. I mean, we're on the phone, but I wish you could have seen the smile when you said Friday because it instantly just brought back all of these memories.

I want to be honest I was a some many points of Calvinists, all the way through just from the upbringing of my parents. And then I went to Liberty and I stayed that way. And I no longer attest to that view of God. But I also had never read the the Institute book that you referenced that you got from your grandmother. And the way that you talk about John Calvin is not the way that I quote unquote, when I said that I was a “Calvinist”, treated people in any way, shape or form.

And so I'd like to kind of define that there. The way that you talk about Calvin was wholly foreign to me, but also entirely beautiful, because I always view it from the lens of the way you know, Jonathan Edwards style preacher would preach, you know that you're just so depraved, Serene. You just don't even understand how wretched you are! Which is not the God that I worship. But that's not the way that it seems like, at least not what you infer that, Calvin really espoused. Am I wrong in that because I'll be honest, I'm entirely ignorant, mostly because of my disgust as I graduated college with the inevitable outcomes to that way of thinking?

Serene 16:43

Yes, no. I mean, there are many ways of interpreting Calvin that have come down to the ages to us. My own reading of Calvin was really influenced by…I had just returned from two years of living in India and then in the Philippines. Philippines was in the middle of a civil war in India confronted enormous poverty. And I picked up The Institutes to read it back in seminary in New Haven. And I began to read this as a book that a pastor was writing to people who are oppressed and were hanging on for dear life, and needed a good word and needed strength to persevere through the oppression they were facing. And John Calvin actually says that in the introduction to The Institutes, that this is a book that he's writing for his people who are being persecuted.

What happens 100 years later with Calvin is that this book that was written to give strength to the broken is flipped over and turned into a set of doctrines that are used to justify persecution and oppression. And that's basically the history of Calvinism. And so what I wanted to do was get back underneath that and look at its original context and see why the pastoral Calvin is the Calvin that we should listen to. The one who's proclaiming the love of God that is, you know, unwavering in love, particularly for those who suffer.

Seth Price 18:27

You reference I think it's chapter three, chapter four, original sin, which is something I've been wrestling with a lot lately, particularly because I've been reading a lot of Eastern Orthodox theologians, because I wanted to try to broaden my horizon. So I've been reading a lot on original sin and original blessing. But you said something that caught me and you talk about the influence of original sin. And I think it's in the portion of your book where you talk about rowing the boat, for your grandfather, and I think his politician friend, who's African American, if I'm remembering correctly? And then just the inherent, you know, the filter that your grandfather has. But then somehow, you know, after the fact is as inappropriate jokes are told at the dinner table, and I've heard my share with those as well, that you know this wretchedness has been inherited somehow down through an original sin. But then you say,

Grace is more original than sin.

And so I'd like to focus on that part. Because I feel like everybody is really good about talking about missing the mark and sin. But we're not all that good about talking about grace. And so what do you mean when you say “grace is more original than sin”?

Serene 19:34

Oh, that's a great question. And that's a profoundly theological question and is probably the most important question anyone can ever ask about faith. That I believe and find this in Calvin find it in the faith I grew up in, that the love of God is simply the truth about all of our lives. And that love for each person and through the Earth is just a given. It is the truth. And there's nothing that we can do to throw that love of God away. Because it's something God gives to us and it's not something we even have to receive in order for it to be true.

Seth Price 20:17

Yeah.

Serene 20:18

Now sin comes secondly in that sin describes all the different ways in which we rebel against God and rebel against, for me, the love-the orientation towards human flourishing that we were destined towards. That's sin. But the fact that we sin doesn't cause God to stop loving us—that is the original grace. Which doesn't downplay the magnitude and horror of sin, but says that back behind sin is an unstable, unceasing walk hard truth and that is God's love.

Seth Price 21:36

As I was reading, I was highlighting Serene, just different stories that you tell about your life and your upbringing and so many of them are so deeply personal and heartbroken, or heartbreaking. And it made me wonder if I would be able to write something so deeply personal and like pull back layers of myself that I would protect maybe only for a close family. And so I have no idea how you did that. But I found myself punting like alright, I don't know how I can talk about this, and it not be too emotional and then punting again and then punting again. But I want to zero in on a few specific stories that really were deeply impactful to me.

You talk in a chapter on Barth and in the Bell Tower, I think is what it is. And you talk about the story that if you're going to a birthday party, at a pool and the pool is closed, and then you have to go to a different pool. And that is basically the pool of African American Jews. And what surprises me so much of your story, Serene is the lack of self filtering. You know, that you just allow things to be honest. And honestly, I was surprised.

But I wonder if you could kind of go through that story a bit and kind of how that changed your mentality or at least helped you come through some self realization.

Serene 22:45

Yeah. So I was so excited about that birthday party. And the car was filled with all of the quite neighborhood girls in from the white suburb that we lived in at the time in Richardson, Texas. And when we got to the pool, where we were going to have the party was closed. And so my father says, Well, okay, we're going to go to the pool and the other part of town when every girl in the car knew that that was the pool for African Americans swim. And my father hears this voice come out of the backseat, saying, I don't want to swim with black people. And he gets out of the car and asks “who said that awful thing”? And I have to raise my hand, because it came from my mouth.

And I write about both how angry I was at my father for ruining my party because I knew every little girl in that backseat was thinking the same thing I was, but I also felt so ashamed that something had come out of my mouth that against everything my parents did for. And my parents had both been so active, and were at the moment, so active in the civil rights movement in Dallas. And what I used that as an occasion for is reflecting on the fact that the racism, and the white supremacy, that runs through our culture is so deep that you can have the most progressive parents and the most progressive teachers in the world but all of that racism is still going to seep into you and it seeped into my little girl body. And I had all sorts of unconscious biases that I picked up from the culture that were then coming out of my mouth.

My father in order to really impress upon me the seriousness of the wickedness of what I had said gave me the choice of going back home to the house with all our friends and participating in my own birthday party. And then never having another birthday party again, or not participating in the party and having future birthday parties. I chose to go back and have a party with my friends. It was a really heavy duty punishment to lay upon a child who, at some levels, is just espousing what everyone else thought. But at the same time, it really got through the message, the moral message, about the seriousness of white supremacy and racism.

Of course, my wonderful father the next morning, I woke up and he began to plan next year's birthday party with me. So the punishment didn't hold but it sure came across and I honestly think and I say this throughout the book, that until white people in America are able to admit and talk about the white supremacy and racism that runs through all of our families. And that cannot help but embed itself in our unconscious mind until we're able to talk about that. We're not going to be able to get beyond it. And in this book, that's why I tried to talk about growing up in Oklahoma and the white supremacy that was everywhere. I also tell a terrible story about my realization that a lynching of a young woman in 1911 took place in the small town of Okehma, where most of the town was comprised of my family, and that it's highly unlikely that they were not a part of that. And that's something as a white person I have to come to grips with. That racial violence isn't something It's such in the far distant past. It's something that's in my family.

Seth Price 27:04

When I give people critiques like that, because I try to, honestly, I'll ask you this both as a parent and then just as a human. So when I catch my kids saying things I really struggle with how to address it, because it is shameful. But I also wonder what I've done as a parent, to make it somehow be okay to think that? So that's one question, how is a parent to even do that without belittling, you know, my kids, but also stressing the importance? Because I don't want to make them, I do want to make them fearful, but I want to make them fearful of the status quo, not fearful of voicing their opinions and filtering themselves. But then I'll also get from adults. “Yeah, but Serene, those were your ancestors. Like you didn't do that. And so you can't held any blame”. “You know, I have “black friends” or I have quote unquote, this or I didn't own any slaves, or I didn't do this or do that”. Which is the most common response that I get from people when I engage in conversations on race or white supremacy. So how do I how would I do either one of those with good practices?

Serene 28:15

Mm hmm.

Well, I think that with regard to the first in terms of parenting, I've tried to parent my own daughter in such a way that I don't shame her but I'm constantly trying to educate her. And never hesitating to point out when she is expressing the dominant cultures, views around race and it's particularly really hard to have your own daughter come home and say things that are totally sexist about women. You know, how and how do you sort of point another way forward? And, you know, shame is a very complicated dynamic and Sometimes it can be terribly destructive. But sometimes I think that when it comes to these horrendous sins of our past we need to feel a little more shame. Because it is shameful.

Now with respect to like the present day and saying to people who would respond to my story, “well, Serene, you're not, you know, you, you haven't done all those things that your grandfather's family probably did”. But the fact of the matter is that I have made my way forward in life taking advantage of, and oftentimes not even aware of how much I'm taking advantage of, my white privilege. That I was able…I don't even know what happened to Laura Nelson's family. She left a baby daughter by the steps of the bridge before she was lynched. I don't know the story of that daughter, but I know my story. And my story was one in which I had all the confidence in the world that it took to go to college and then to go to graduate school and get a PhD. I had parents and grandparents who were able to economically help me do that and stepped into the Presidency of Union. Thinking that that was a place that I belonged, and that I could do this. And that legacy of Jim Crow and chattel slavery has, as we can look around the country and see, devastated the opportunities for African Americans to have a history like mine. And in that sense, I'm still bear that legacy in my own successes.

Seth Price 30:56

The chapter that you talk about going to India you talk about Indian Liberation Theology, which is the first time I've ever heard those three words put together. I talk a lot. I hear a lot about black liberation theology. And then I've also heard a lot about, you know, the liberation theology of, you know, Latin America. So how does that differ Indian liberation theology than the other or does it?

Serene 31:21

Yeah, well, so in India, I was studying at a small seminary, Tamil Nadu Theological Seminary in Madurai, and it was really the birthplace of what's called Dalit liberation theology. And Dalit is the word for servant. It's now the word that people use to refer to that whole group of people that Gandhi called “The Untouchables”. Those who are outside of the caste system because they are considered so impure. And so low in terms of their human status that they're made to be the street cleaners, the sewage cleaners, they are the outcast of India's caste system.

And what was so exciting about the seminary is that most of the students there and the professors were Dalits. And they were starting to push back against this caste system, and to say, No, this is wrong, these people are valuable. Because what's so interesting is that, you know, Gandhi himself, pushed back against British imperialism, and he did mobilize many Untouchables. But even Gandhi himself, did not question the caste system, and that the Dalit community now is pushing back on it is in an Indian context is very radical. And it's also very dangerous.

Seth Price 33:04

So how is that? And this may be, maybe you don't know, how is that changing faith there, but I don't necessarily mean face Christian faith, just overall faith? Because, you know, faith in politics and faith in policies and everything is intertwined regardless of whether or not you think that they are. They always are, is it changing India at all? Is it making it better is making it worse?

Serene 33:29

Well, right now, the leadership of India is very pro the status quo and traditionalist with respect to the caste system. So it's very hard in India today to be Christian or Muslim or to be Dalit, or Buddhist. And so you find these communities working together to push back against that caste system because they all fall outside of it. And to say no for India to be a true democracy, we cannot have a caste system. And that caste system in India is deep. It goes back thousands and thousands of years.

Seth Price 34:13

Well, of course, yeah, I mean, we don't have a caste system. But that's like when people say, you know, in America that the politicians that have term limits are politicians to do this, or do this or do this. But why would they? Why would they vote themselves into less power? Why would they do that, I don’t think that I would? I would like to think that I would. But I'm also honest enough to know, I don't know that I would.

Serene 34:36

Well, I think in India, it's very interesting that you find more and more people who are Hindu in their origins and upbringing, and even high caste Hindus who are rejecting that view of what it means to be Hindu because of the pressures that had been brought by all of these marginal groups that are saying “wait the system is wrong”. So it's even changing Hinduism itself.

Seth Price 35:01

You referenced the Timothy McVeigh bombing in Oklahoma. And when I read that visions of you know Christ Church or even just the Sri Lanka Eastern politics, you know so many people, just but that happens every week if people just look for it like it's, it's everywhere, and you talk about hatred, and then you basically write in a, you know, a message or a sermon or a speech that you would given that I honestly, if someone came into my church and blown something up, like I would feel the same way you would. Honestly, I would probably feel that way if someone talk poorly about my child to my face or the so there's a massive tension between anger and hate, and love and compassion. And the line that you write that struck me the most. And I've thought on it for weeks now. Is is after you've had your speech, you say

my feet took me to my Pew and my body sat down, and I've almost become an atheist, I thought for a moment. And then the years to come, I would realize the fine line between the two atheism and divine vision, nothingness and the holy.

And so I want to know if you can break that apart again, just how those four things interplay, atheism and divine vision and nothingness in the holy. And I asked that because I feel like a lot of people as they questioned God, they eventually just pull the ripcord and fall into atheism because they don't know where to go. They just they hit a roadblock and they just I can't do this anymore. I'm so frustrated and I'm so mad and I'm just not interested in investing the emotional capital into working through this anymore.

Serene 36:35

Yeah.

So in the in that sermon that I preached, you know, I think, as most people expect with a sermon, they want a nice ending to it. And this was just weeks after the bombings, in which I lost friends, in which my brother in law was injured. And the state of horror and confusion and grief inside me was so powerful. And in my questions about God, you know how can you ask these questions, even if you know they're stupid questions because you don't think God acts this way. But you ask yourself anyway, how could God allow this? You know, where is there any meaning or hope in this? Those things are so devastating your whole internal world just collapses. And what I wanted to do in that sermon was just be honest with everybody and say this is what it's like, everything collapses inside of you. And if you're too quick, to try to fix it all up and make it look pretty and bring in God as if God is a nice, quaint, little answer to all of our suffering then your faith isn't worth anything. But stepping into that place of utter desolation is scary. And it's in one of those moments that you seriously question everything you thought you believed. But if you're not brave enough if you're not serious enough to step into that place of utter doubt, then the faith that you have is not strong enough to hold you. Yeah. And I had the courage to step there.

And it was just in the experience for me in that moment that I go on to write is when I sat down in my pew the woman next to me to softly put her hand on my leg to call me down because I was shaking so much. And it was within that minute, in that touch, that I found grace.

Seth Price 38:38

And I'd argue that's what the church was right there, you know, a safe place to be transparent and raw, and then that same safe place to hold you. You know, to reference a story with your daughter, you know, she, I forget what the coins I'm a banker by trade and so I like that story, but you know, a safe place to hold someone.

We're coming close to the end of our time I could I could probably talk to you for hours. I really liked that so many different parts of your book. But it's not, actually this is the first time in almost two years of doing this, that I've ever spoken to someone that is basically a spearhead of a force that trains pastors and those with a theological mindset bent for the future. And so, where should Christians seminaries be heading? Like what do we do if you look at or you know, as Union or other seminaries, you know, here in Virginia Baptist Theological Seminary, literally, I think shuttered its doors in February. So where does the church need to be training their leaders to take it as you see it right now?

Serene 39:47

Oh, that's such a wonderful question. And it and it is the question of the day for theological education. And what I believe is that we're in the midst right now of another reformation of the magnitude of the one that happened 500 years ago; when everything is being turned upside down when the truth is that we held as you know, invaluable are now being questioned. And that's also when I go back to John Calvin. John Calvin didn't think that he was breaking from the Catholic Church. But he did know that his criticisms were searing and serious. And he was dealing with a whole population of people who no longer believed. And that's the same kind of moment we're in. And it's a moment of enormous crisis, but it's also in a moment in which there's the capacity for really mind shattering creativity.

And I think in so far as our seminaries are able to still teach the students the traditions and the stories that had been so crucial to the faith for centuries. But in teaching these stories to allow students to ask the question, “well, what did they mean to us today?” And the answers that were coming up with and I think our children and our children's children will come up with a very different than the answers that we found with respect to how we understand God. And at Union, where I am that is also opening our doors, not only to Christian students, but to Buddhist and Muslim students, and to the many many unaffiliated students who come here who don't come out of a tradition but out of a spiritual yearning. Because what the future holds for us is, if we make it, we're going to have to make it all together. And that conversation needs to be between all of us together.

Seth Price 41:41

I said that was the last question but I have one more question after that. And so if I hear that and I agree wholeheartedly. How do I do that at the dinner table? Because that conversation is gonna come home. So how do I do it and not be aggressive? Or if there's a parent listening, going? Yeah, we need to talk about this. How Do I do this with my child or with my pastor or with the deacon, and not be aggressive? Because I know one thing when people get angry you just can't think correctly anymore, that that's just not the way the brain works. So how do we do it well?

Serene 42:16

Well, for me, the most powerful way to talk about it is just what is the biggest truth that Jesus came to speak? And what is the biggest truth about the God of Jesus, and that is this message of love. And if you can get people talking about what they think love means, and what kind of life Jesus calls us to live, it shifts the dynamics from right and wrong and pronouncements to talking about a story of a man who healed people and proclaimed liberation. And that's the kind of space where, you know, people who have read Scripture and think about Jesus can talk about it. I mean, Jesus is amazing, and an incredible starting point for these discussions. So you're not going to find anything where Jesus is talking about being anti-LGBTQ. I mean, it's just not there. Nothing about choice. Nothing about women's bodies and their rights, you know, so it opens up space.

Seth Price 43:19

Oddly enough. I almost had one of those arguments today with a friend of mine that was writing me something about the Boy Scouts. And there's a big thing in the news about this. And he's like, Yeah, what's because of all the, you know, they decided to let there be homosexual scout masters. And I almost said something and then I deleted it. And then I almost said something else. And then I deleted it. I thought about calling him and then I hung it up. Because I'm still too angry because there's so much retconning and confirmation bias that I just I'm still struggling. I know what I want to say. I have no idea how to say it. I know it's gonna start with these cases go back to 1944 so your whole premise is unfounded.

But either way that is entirely off topic. Thank you so, so much for coming on. It was a privilege to be able to read your book. And I think the world has a better place for it. So where would people go? I've given away a handful of copies already have recommended it to I don't know how many people because it's honest, in a world full of books that say the same thing. Yours says different things in an entirely honest way. And I really appreciate that.

So where would you point people to…to either engage with you, maybe to learn more about the work that you're doing a union? The book is available everywhere that you can buy books, and links for that will be you know, as people go back to the show notes in the episode, but where would you send them to engage a bit with you?

Serene 44:47

Um, well, the webpage at Union has a lot about all the things that we're doing, as well as ongoing conversations with me I have a Twitter account and I am just one voice amongst many people who are struggling and trying to find answers to these questions, so that's where I would point them. And to you, your show!

Seth Price 45:12

Well, thanks. Yeah, I would second all of that…Robert's Rules, I’ll third it, or whatever it's called all of that so well thank you again I've really enjoyed the conversation.

Serene 45:24

Yes thank you so much and have a great day you as well.

Seth Price 45:40

I'd like to end with reading a quote from Serene’s book. It's a quote of a quote. And so she references Howard Thurman often off and on throughout the book, and how deeply impactful his and other words like his work on her life. And there's a quote towards the end, on forgiving that really speaks to me. So I'd like to share that with you. He says,

There is in every one of us an inward sea. In that sea there is an island; and on that island there is a temple. In that temple there is an altar; and on that altar burns a flame. Each one of us, whether we bow our knee at an altar external to ourselves or not, is committed to the journey that will lead him to the exploration of his inward sea, to locate his inward island, to find the temple, and to meet, at the altar in that temple, the God of his life.

And what a better picture than that, if we'll do the work, that hard work of wrestling with who we really are, which is really beloved, honoring that and realizing that everyone else is also beloved. Man, I can't imagine what that would do, to the way that we love to the way that we're called to love others to love ourselves, I can't imagine what that would do to the way that we blame others. So many evils of the world through which is realized what we actually are. I hope you’ve enjoyed the conversation.

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Salvation and The Inescapable Love of God with Thomas Talbott / Transcript

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Thomas Talbott 0:00

Actually I don't think that our eternal destiny is a matter of choice. I mean, people present it that way. But Paul seems to explicitly deny that in Romans 9, he says, “So it depends not on human will or exertion” now this is the new RSV translation and the King James reads a bit differently, but “so it depends not on anyone will or exertion but God who shows mercy, because all God's actions are merciful”. The kindness that he speaks of in Romans 11 is an expression of His mercy towards the obedient. His severity, his judgment, hardening of a heart, blinding the eyes of the unbelieving Jews is an expression of mercy and therefore you have no choice. God's going to be merciful to you no matter what you do, but the problem is people think of mercy as some kind of sentimental kind of happiness—mercy is what God does in order to meet your true spiritual needs.

Seth Price 1:30

Hello, my friends and welcome back to the Can I Say This At Church podcast, I am Seth. I'm very excited that you're here. We're going to talk about salvation, and hell, and some of those topics. And so as I look back month over month over month through like the last almost two years, the most popular episodes have been on hell. So way back in the day, of 2017, I was able to talk by phone with Thomas Talbott, who is the Emeritus Professor of Philosophy at Williamette University in Salem, Oregon. And he was one of the first people that I actually reached out to and I couldn't find an email address. And so I just called the number that I found listed for him on the internet. And I believe I got his wife, I left a voicemail. And I got his wife and I left a message. And I said, “Hey, here's what I want to do can I talk with your husband”. She said, “He's out now. Let me get with him and see if he'll call you back”.

And then he called me back and we kind of discussed it over the phone with him coming on. And at the time, I had not recorded any episodes. So the first episode that I recorded was with Jared Byas and Robin Parry on the same day. And so to be honest, when he asked me what I was trying to do, I really struggled to tell him what but I'm glad that he could hear the intentionality in my voice. So he called me back later and decided to come on. And then I just let it sit.

So I talked about evangelical universalism with Robin Parry, and I talked about annihilationism with John Stackhouse. And then I did annihilationism again, with Chris Date. And as I thought back on it as like, I've had this sitting here. I've listened to it a few times, I've been entirely pleased with it, but I just felt like it wasn't time yet to revisit that topic, but I feel like it is now. And so some caveats with this episode. I still didn't really know what he was doing. But it doesn't make my questions and his answers any less important or any less impactful for me and matter of face as I listened back to it, I find I'm still struggling with some of the same things and other things. I hear myself and I go, oh, man, Seth, you've grown.

There are things that I am more comfortable with now, or I have more knowledge about now or just through contemplative prayer or meditation or just regular prayer I am at a more healthy place now than I was in December of 2017. And so I really hope that you like this. And so for Patreon supporters, this will be a repeat for you. A lot of you heard this months ago, in a totally unedited form with no music. And so I'm really grateful for humans like Thomas that would take a risk talking with a random yahoo out in Virginia. I'm so sorry that it's taken this long to get it out. But I feel like it's time to revisit hell and salvation and so I hope that you enjoy this episode with Thomas Talbot.

Seth Price 4:40

My guest today is Dr. Thomas Talbott. And Dr. Talbot I just wanted to thank you very much for making the time to come on to the Can I Say This At Church podcast.

Thomas Talbott 4:50

Well, thank you for having me. Could you repeat one more time what the podcast name is?

Seth Price 4:57

Sure so it's Can I Say This At Church.

Thomas Talbott 5:01

Oh, that's great. I like that!.

Seth Price 5:03

Yeah. So for those of my, you know, of the listeners that that aren't as familiar with you, I was hoping you could maybe give us a brief. Just a quick snapshot of of who you are and kind of how you came to the positions that you hold now.

Thomas Talbott 5:20

Yeah. Well, I suspect I may have come from the same background as you did well, or at least a similar one, a very conservative evangelical church. I went to a very conservative Christian High School. The church I attended when I was in high school in college was closely associated with Dallas Theological Seminary and was into dispensationalism a lot, something that I subsequently rejected. I first encountered Calvinism when I was in college, and I rejected it immediately. I just couldn't believe that anyone could believe that before the foundation of the world God forordained that some people would suffer eternally and hell.

Seth Price 6:20

What college was that?

Thomas Talbott 6:22

Portland State University

Seth Price 6:23

Okay.

Thomas Talbott 6:24

It was through Intervarsity, the pastor of the woman I eventually married, came and gave a talk and he and I ended up with a huge argument; and later on he married us (laughs).

Seth Price 6:40

So I take each of you off move past that then?

Thomas Talbott 6:43

We’ve always actually had a good relationship. We started off with a with a huge argument. And of course, he would go into things like Romans 9 and I didn't know what to say about that. And anyway, he felt that I was honest enough, I guess, to deservedly married the woman that I married. But the high school I went to sort of identified a “good Christian” as someone who didn't smoke, drink, dance, rollerskating kind of iffy, play cards or attend Hollywood movies. So it's a very conservative cultural background.

My parents, however, were much more open. My dad rarely went to church, but he felt that his kids needed to be raised in the church. And my mom became a Christian during her college days, but had an incredibly loving nature. Anyway, during my college and seminary days I went to Florida Theological Seminary, my aim was to work out as best I could, basically Arminian theology. And I was very attracted to people like CS Lewis. And I was attracted to a freewill theodicy of hell. Actually, during all those years, it never even occurred to me that someone might take the doctrine of universal reconciliation seriously. I mean, it just never even…I never even thought about it. And you asked, “Well, how did I make the transition”? It's interesting, my younger brother, while I was in seminary, came under the influence of George MacDonald. And at this time, the works of MacDonald weren't really available. But the library at Wheaton had TypeScript copies of a lot of MacDonald's unspoken sermons.

And he gave a couple of them to the one on justice and one called the consuming fire and they didn't bowl me over right at the start. But the more I thought about MacDonald's perspective and how different it was from the perspective that I had been inculcated with during my younger days, and how it put things together in a way that just seemed radically different from what I had heard, and everything seemed to start making sense, even Romans 9 started to make sense to me. And so that was very influential in my starting to toy with the idea of universal reconciliation. But it didn't take long…it didn't take long until it just blew me away. I couldn't read the Bible in any other way right now.

Seth Price 10:13

Right? So was that while you were at Fuller, or…

Thomas Talbott 10:18

No, actually, I think after. I graduated from Fuller (and) I went to University of California at Santa Barbara, in the philosophy department. And I think it was probably right after I graduated from Fuller that I started thinking that, you know let's just see whether an interpretation of the Bible as a whole from a Universalist perspective would make as much sense as interpreting it from the perspective of the Calvinist or interpret it from the perspective of an Arminian.

And as it turns out, if you take a proposition that all Calvinists defend and you take a proposition that all Arminians defend and put them together, you're going to have universalism. The proposition that all Arminians defend, has to do with the extent and nature of God's love. That God, sincerely desires, He wills are sincerely desires, the salvation of all. The propositions that the Calvinist defends has to do with the nature of Christ's victory or God's victory in Christ. The nature and extent of that victory God will successfully redeem all of those whom he elects who he chooses to redeem, who you will or sincerely desires to redeem.

Seth Price 12:14

And that's what you rejected early in high school was was that early in college?

Thomas Talbott 12:23

College.

I was assuming that the doctrine of everlasting separation from God was true. And if that's true, then either you're going to have to reject the claim that God's love extends to all human beings, his redemptive love is elected love, and that's what the Calvinists do—or you're going to have to reject the claim that God's victory is complete in the sense that he will successfully redeem every One whom he wills or desires, sincerely desires, to redeem. So your choices between a God who is limited in love or a God whose victory is limited.

Seth Price 13:17

Well I guess there's always the other option for he's just fine with some people never been with him at all.

Thomas Talbott 13:27

Yeah, that's true. Sorry…you mean…I mean, but he is fine with some people never been with him at all? Does this include annihilating them…tormenting them...punishing them?

Seth Price 13:43

Yeah, the eternal conscious torment that I was raised in, you know, he's fine with you're not with me and not only for that I'm fine for you to not be with me for forever, which has never set right with me very much.

Thomas Talbott 13:58

Yeah. What? Yeah, well Yeah, that's that's the issue here.

I think I misunderstood you just before. Because when you say, Well, he's fine with not being with me as well. Okay, you guys go on and do your own thing and I won't harm you or anything like that. But the idea of separation, it's either going to include annihilation, or it's going to include punishment, or it's going to include God providentially providing a place for these people that live sort of without any conscious interaction with him. It's gonna be one of those three. Right?

Seth Price 14:44

Yeah. So how do you…so how can I…so from reading portions of your book, I find that you make the argument that you can't scripturally support all three of those that you have to reject one of them to sit with.

Thomas Talbott 15:02

Yes, in other words, we've got here three propositions that are logically inconsistent. And even if a person comes to me and says, “Well, I don't think they are logically inconsistent”, I think I can, you know, symbolize them and prove that they are logically inconsistent. But even if somebody says they aren't named me a single theologian who accepts all three. I don't know of any theologians that would accept all three.

The majority of theologians, in the Western tradition anyway, would accept the claim that some people will be eternally separated from God. But I don't know.

Sorry…ask me a question here.

Seth Price 16:00

Sure. So let me get it back to Scripture. So can you give me some of the ways that the there are just Scriptural references to support, or not necessarily support, to support each and then how they just have that can't go together? I guess as I read your book, I read through that portion a couple times, I think it's chapter four, where you kind of break down all three suppositions and then and then go on to say, you know, two of these are fine, but scripturally the third can't hold any weight. And that's the problem.

Thomas Talbott 16:36

Actually, what I argue is that if you just pick up an English Bible and read it naturally without bringing any theological presuppositions to the text, you will find Biblical texts that seem to support each of these propositions. But they can't all be true, that's the problem. In support of the claim that God's love extends equally to all, and that he wills or desire that all the saved. You know, a naive reader of the English Bible might appeal to text like 2 Peter 3:9. “The Lord is not willing to any should perish but wills instead, that all should come to repentance”.

1 Timothy 2:4 “God's desires everyone to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth”. Ezekiel 33”11 “As I live, says the Lord I have no pleasure the death of the wicked, but desire said that the wicked turn away from their ways and live”. And you know a very interesting Old Testament texts as Lamentations 3:22 and 3:31-33. “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases. His mercies never come to an end. For the Lord will not reject forever. Although he causes grief, he will have compassion according to the abundance of His steadfast love. For you to not willingly afflict or grieve anyone.”

All of these texts seem to suggest that God really does want to achieve the reconciliation of all sinners. And, you know, then a text like 1 John 2:2 suggests further that Jesus Christ suffered and died precisely in order to achieve that end. When it says that Jesus Christ is the atoning sacrifice for our sins and not for us only but for the sins of the entire world. And then of course in 2 Corinthians, it's clear that God's attitudes toward us doesn't have to change, our attitude towards him has to change. But anyway, so there are plenty of texts that the Arminians would appeal to, in order to suggest that God really does love all human beings in the sense that he wills or sincerely desires, that each of them be reconciled to him and achieve some sort of union with him.

But now, we can turn texts that the Calvinists like, which suggests that God is going to achieve all of his redemptive purposes. Ephesians 1:11 “God accomplishes all things according to as well and counsel”, Job 42:2 “I know that you the Lord God can do all things and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted”. Or Isaiah 46:10-11. “My counsel shall stand, I accomplish all my purpose. I have spoken, I will bring it to pass, I have purpose, and I will do it. I mean, these texts seem to imply that God is able to accomplish all of his purposes, including his redemptive purposes. And then, of course, in 1 Corinthians 15, God ultimately brings all things into subjection to Christ.

But then, of course, we've got the issue of eternal separation. And if you pick up an English Bible and read it sort of, naively, without bringing a lot of theological assumptions to it, you will probably come across Matthew 25:46, which says, “and they will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.” 2 Thessalonians 1:9, “they shall suffer the punishment of eternal destruction and exclusion from the presence of the Lord, as from the glory of his might”. Revelation 21:8. “But as for the cowardly, the faithless, the polluted, as for murderers, fornicators, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars, their lot shall be in the lake that burns with fire and brimstone, which is a second death” and these texts may seem to imply that at least some persons will be lost forever and therefore never reconciled to God.

Thomas Talbott 21:40

So my point is that you've got prima facia support in the Bible for all three propositions, the proposition about God's love, the proposition about his success in achieving his will, and the proposition that some people will be eternally separated from God. And you know, this is something maybe I have liked to read here, it's just two or three lines. Because the point is that various texts in the Bible initially appear to support and the fact that they decided on behalf of each of our three propositions with respect to each of them. Some theologians and Bible scholars have concluded that it is a fundamental, not a peripheral, but a fundamental teaching of the Bible.

Seth Price 22:44

When you say “it” is fundamental, you mean, you mean the conversation about eternal separation, is that what you say it?

Thomas Talbott 22:52

No each proposition.

Let me back off here and give a clearer explanation of total strategy. In order to have an interpretation of the Bible as a whole, you have to interpret some things in light of other, some texts in light of others. And so my strategy is to set up three propositions that cannot all be true, but can all receive initial support from texts in the Bible. And therefore that's going to dictate how you're going to proceed.

For example, the Calvinists believes in eternal separation, and he believes that God's will can't be thwarted. Therefore, he rejects the claim that God sincerely desires or wills, the salvation of all. The Arminian believes in eternal separation, but believes that God sincerely wills or desires the salvation of all. So the Arminian rejects to claim the God's will, his redemptive purpose, as expressed, for example, in the 1 Timothy 2:4, I think it is, he rejects the claim that God's will can't be thwarted. He rejects the claim that God's redemptive will will eventually be achieved. The Universalist accepts the Calvinist claim that God's redemptive will can't be thwarted and accepts the Arminian claim that God wills that all be saved and he concludes the third proposition.

Seth Price 25:24

Switching a little bit of gears, but I think it's something that I've always had a question about. So, when you were going through some of those Scriptures a minute ago, and you have like the Calvinists talking about, you know, eternally separated and burning in eternal fire and whatnot, there seems to be a big contention on how those are translated. And so how can someone like myself, with limited theological training, know how to infer those texts if I was to just pick it up or if I was to hear someone speak about it at church or just in talking in passing?

Thomas Talbott 25:57

Yeah, that's a great question.

As you know, The word translated “eternal” is debated by a lot of parties. What does it mean? Does it mean age enduring? Does it really mean everlasting? And my strategy is to let whoever I'm discussing with to say what that person thinks. If I was holding a discussion with a pastor of a church that wants to say this really does mean eternal, or at least everlasting. What we're talking about in Matthew 25:46 is eternal punishment.

Well, what I would say there is, you got to be clear that we're talking about an adjective. And I don't care how you translate that adjective. It's the very nature of an adjective that it can vary, sometimes greatly, particularly when it's referring to different categories of things in different contexts. Forget the Greek, take the English word everlasting. An everlasting struggle would literally be a struggle that goes on forever and ever never ends. Think of an everlasting change, or an everlasting transformation, or an everlasting correction. That might be an event that almost instantaneous it could be or it might be longer. But it depends on the noun that it is correlated with.

Now an everlasting correction might have effects that endure forever. But it doesn't follow that the correction is going to take place over an indefinitely long period of time. So we got to look at the noun. Now the noun “Colossus” is a word that, at least in ancient Greek, was a word for correction, remedial punishment. So translate the word aiónios as everlasting if you wish. It's still going to be very different if it's an everlasting correction than it will be if it were everlasting retribution. So my claim about Matthew 25:46 is that what we're talking about is a certain kind of correction.

But, you know, actually that doesn't really get to the heart of it because I think that in the Bible, the word aiónios really is somewhat platonic. You know, we read, I guess 2 Corinthians (2 Cor 4:18) “things that are seen are temporal and the things that are unseen are eternal”.

That sounds a bit platonic to me. But the point is that when it comes to God what is eternal is God and His gifts, his actions in time, various possessions are eternal in a secondary sense that they have their causal source is eternal God Himself. This gets pretty complicated and I talk about it in my chapter on eschatological punishment and interpretation in New Testament teachings.

Seth Price 30:30

In a universalism, or Christian universalism, view of the be all and end all at the end of everything. What is hell?

Thomas Talbott 30:43

Hell is the way that we experience the love of God when we are in a state of disobedience.

Seth Price 30:54

So it's not a future place to be. It's right now?

Thomas Talbott 30:58

There could be a future place called hell, I don't rule that out. But hell would exist for the purpose of the ultimate redemption of those in it. But what we have to understand, I think, is how to put together two themes, the theme of Christ's victory over sin and death and the theme of God's judgment. And one can either interpret God's judgment in light of his victory and triumph over sin and death, or one can interpret triumph, or his limited victory, in light of the theme of justice. My view is that we should start with the victory and triumph, especially since Paul makes it so clear in his theological essay Romans 9-11 that in the end, justice and mercy are the same. The hardening comes upon part of Israel in order that all of Israel will be saved. And when he talks about the Jews being disobedient, so that the Gentiles can come in and then this sort of strategy of jealousy where all the Jews will then come in that is clearly an indication that the non remnant Jews…I mean, what he's talking about is a non remnant Jews there.

And just in case you don't get the point, he sums it up with his magnificent statement in 11:32 “for God has imprisoned all in disobedience in order that he might have mercy upon all,” the whole thing is the outworking of a merciful purpose. Everything God does: what he judges, when he hardens the heart, when he blinds the disobedience, all of that is in the surface of a more basic, merciful purpose-couldn't make it clear. And the interesting thing is that if you look at Paul's theological discourse in Romans 9-11 it starts out in despair at the beginning of 9. I'm speaking the truth. My conscious bears with me. I’m in great agony over the state of my brother, my kin. And it ends in joyous exaltation.

And what explains that sudden Joy? To use an expression that I borrowed from JRR Tolkien who says “that the essence of a good fairy tale is a sudden joy has stirred. I mean, we've been talking about the hardening of Pharaoh's heart, the hatred of Esau, and vessels of wrath, and all of that. But now we find it is all in the service of a more fundamental purpose. Mercy, God has imprisoned all of us in disobedience, so that he may be merciful to us all. I don't see how he could get any more explicit than that.

Seth Price 34:50

So I guess one of the questions that I struggle with is my participation in this. So if I'm formed with is the ability to embrace whatever I want to…how do I have any say so in my ultimate result of anything? I guess, for lack of a better word, and I think I read it in your book and you talk about how Zachary Mannus references Kierkegaard and defends that people are just so damned and filled with hatred. And then if we want to remain in that state that we can choose to do so. So how, if that's correct, and I'm able to do that, how does that sit with a possibility that no eventually everything's going to be reconciled to Christ? Eventually, whatever determined amount of time that is.

Thomas Talbott 35:53

Yeah. I think the crucial thing here, Seth, is that the consequences of our actions are a source of Revelation. You know, I can choose to put my hand in fire, but I cannot choose to put my hand in fire and not be burned. Our actions have consequences. And when we act in a disobedient way those consequences are going to be instances of some people call God's severity. You know, Paul says, in the first part of Romans 11 “note severity and the kindness of God.” If you act disobedient Lee, you will experience God's love and severity. If you act obediently, you will experience it as kindness.

And so, the general point is that the consequences of our actions are themselves a source of Revelation. I may suffer from, you know, we humans suffer from all kinds of illusions, our disobedience is a result of a host of illusions. But if I suffer from the illusion that I have the skill to ski down a treacherous slope and so I go ahead and try and do it. A fall on a broken leg or maybe repeated falls and repeated disasters are going to reveal to me the fact that no, I don't have that skill; that was an illusion.

When we act disobediently, we think we can benefit ourselves, oftentimes at the expense of other people. But if we act upon that illusion, we will find again and again that we have not benefited ourselves. And at some at some point, my own view is, the purpose of the lake of fire is actually to purge us of all the evil impulses. But if in the lake of fire, someone still refuses to learn proper lessons, you can always leap into the outer darkness where you got a soul suspended alone in sheer nothingness. George MacDonald has a beautiful description of that horrific state.

Seth Price 38:38

Can you go into that a little bit with George MacDonald? Because I understand. He's like, early 1800s. And so I'm not familiar.

Thomas Talbott 38:47

No he’s late 1800s.

Seth Price 38:49

I got it wrong. I apologize. But I'm not familiar with that, can you go into how he describes that a bit?

Thomas Talbott 38:58

Well, I don't have the text here to read, I mean in front of me, all I can say is that what he talks about the outer darkness and the horrific state of living without any, even, implicit experience of God. Think of it as a soul suspended alone in nothingness. Think of John Milton's Satan, what he said about better to reign in hell than serve in heaven. Well in the outer darkness is nobody to reign over. Because if you have other people there, you're all of a sudden going to start getting implicit experiences of God. As I recall, MacDonald's description is God is still there with you, however much you despise god, he's there warming your heart making life a good thing for you. But if he withdraws all of that, the suggestion is that no one who's rational enough to be a free agent could possibly see that as a good thing.

You know, CS Lewis said that “union with God” is with a divine nature's way put it “is bliss. separation from it is an objective horror.” Well, no one who's rational enough to qualify as a free agent could possibly freely choose an objective horror, over bliss. So what we have to do is learn the difference over our lifetime between the consequences of submitting to God and the consequences of resisting and rejecting God. And I can understand how somebody could freely choose hell. What I can't understand is how somebody could freely choose hell and continue to choose it after experiencing.

Seth Price 41:13

Yeah, I can't either.

Thomas Talbott 41:15

So the purpose of experience and even hellish conditions is to teach us and therefore, God's judgment even if He were to send somebody to help temporarily, would itself be the expression of mercy. It's not merciful to protect people from the consequences of their rebellion. That's why Universalist, Christian Universalist, do not so many people in charge, have a sentimental conception of love. They see God's mercy as a severe mercy. He will require us to learn the lessons we have to learn; not by just changing our mind, but allowing us the freedom to choose and then letting you have the horrific condition that many of us choose to experience.

Seth Price 42:09

That's hard, though. And I guess to oversimplify it, the best way that I could bring that metaphor down to me is a well, a cosmic version of when I'm teaching my son to ride a bike, and I know that first time that I let go of the training wheels that he's gonna fall and it's gonna be horrible. And so I guess you're saying that, I know you're gonna fall, and when you do, I'll be here when you get back up. And we're going to embrace and then we can move forward, or we can continue to try again until we get it correct. That may be an oversimplification, but…

Thomas Talbott 42:46

But that doesn't involve, you know, selfishness to the benefit oneself at the expense of others. And my vision of how we all come into this life is we come into circumstances in which illusion, ambiguity, and ignorance, play a huge role. And, as a result, we are bound to go astray. I mean, sin is missing the mark, we are bound to go astray. And God does permit us to because we have to learn the lessons. So it is a source of Revelation, the consequences of our actions.

Seth Price 43:36

I've been gifted with the ability to be born in America. So what would you say to those who have in this view of salvation that were just born in the wrong country or in the wrong time period, and never heard the redemption story of Christ? And so how would you reconcile someone that's never heard the gospel, dying the first death? How do they have the ability to be reconciled without even knowing the name Christ?

Thomas Talbott 44:04

Well, I guess the issue here is, is there a time limit on God's love? Suppose I were to say that you have to have heard and received Christ before the age of 30, or your lost. Or you have to do so before the age of 40, or your lost forever. Or you have to before the age of 70, or you have to before the time of your death. Why would anyone want to accept that idea!? There's nothing in the Bible that suggests that that's true. I just don't see a problem there with other religions and other cultures. We aren't responsible for the culture that we are born in. And those who have never heard of the gospel are not required to believe something that they'd ever even heard of. Why would anybody want to say that!

Seth Price 45:00

But there will come a time I guess then that they have the the option, the everlasting option to make that choice. And ultimately everyone will.

Thomas Talbott 45:09

Actually I don't think that our eternal destiny is a matter of choice. I mean, people present it that way. But Paul seems to explicitly deny that in Romans 9, he says, “So it depends not on human will or exertion”. Now this is the New RSV translation and the King James reads a bit differently, but “so it depends not on human will or exertion but God who shows mercy,” Because all God's actions are merciful. The kindness that he speaks of in Romans 11 is an expression of His mercy towards the obedient. His severity is judgment, hardening of a heart, blinding the eyes of the unbelieving Jews is an expression of mercy and therefore you have no choice. God's going to be merciful to you no matter what you do, but the problem is People think of mercy as some kind of sentimental kind of, happiness, mercy is what God does in order to meet your true spiritual needs.

Seth Price 46:12

I'm good with that. I think I'm good with that.

Thomas Talbott 46:15

You may be good with that; more than some of your listeners.

Seth Price 46:19

Just full disclosure. So as I've done this, a lot of the people that I'm asking questions of they're not…t's not scripted. They're real questions that I've always wondered if I could say out loud, and the older I get, I'm finding that it's, it's fine to do. So I want to be respectful of your time. So I do have one last question. And it's not necessarily related to universalism, but it is a question that I'm curious to get everyone's opinion on. So in your view, in the church the way that it exists currently, either globally or nationally. What is what is the one thing that you feel as Christians that we could and should do in a generative practice that would help move the church forward or the cause for Christ forward day to day that maybe we're not doing now?

Thomas Talbott 47:13

Yeah. That's a hard one because I don't want to dictate politics or even religion to anybody. My sense would be just really practice love. You know the two great commandments love God with all your heart and all your soul and all your mind. And love your neighbor as yourself. And I know, the high school I went to, we were always being told that we needed to witness and all this, but a lot of that witnessing wasn't really anything but sort of response to a sense of duty. Just love the people around you? And that may involve saying no, to some people, I mean, if somebody starts acting in a racist way, you can lovingly and severely say, “no, that's not right!”

Seth Price 48:18

No, I agree one of my favorite ministers from one of my wife, a nice first church used to say, you know, Christian, if you would do this, it's not a euphemism, and you could actually change the world and he spoke often of what you just said. So, I would agree wholeheartedly. Very wholeheartedly. So while we wrap up, where would you point people to learn more about yourself, obviously, there's your book but more importantly, to just educate themselves in such a way that as they wrestle, there's a good place to to go with with text that has been well researched and maybe the Scripture is presented from the way that you do where the Calvinists or something would say it this way and Arminists would say it this way, and I would say it this way. So what is what is a good place for people to go as they're as they're searching?

Thomas Talbott 49:09

My Willamette University website, you could probably just Google my name, but I'll just real quickly read it. www.Willamette.edu.ttalbott.

Seth Price 49:30

Okay, I'll put that in the put that in the notes as well. I appreciate it very much. I'm thankful for your time.

Seth Price 49:57

That episode still speaks to me. When I'm honest, I lean, still, towards annihilationism. I feel like that is the best way hermeneutically to read the Scriptures, but I am ever hopeful that I'm wrong. I am so hopeful that what, folks like Thomas Talbott and many, many others that what they argue, is a good look at what the future holds for creation, not just humanity. I'm really hopeful that they're right. I just don't know that I can hold that yet. But who knows where my faith will take me? I do know this…on Palm Sunday, I with my church, a Baptist church we gathered with Methodists, and Lutherans, and Episcopalians and our Catholic Brethren, and the Church of God and Christ Brethren, and we marched through downtown of where I live, and I just kept thinking, I don't know what the afterlife looks like, but I really hope that it's that people of all races, every gender nuanced beliefs. Who knows I'm sure and there there would be also, you know, statistically they would have had to have been people that are, you know, LGBTQ in that group but we all marched in celebration of the coming of Easter and in remembrance of Palm Sunday together. Nobody argued nobody bickerd we just exuberantly sat in community with each other. We sang a bit, we prayed a bit, and it was beautiful. And I hope that that's what we're all going to do.

But I really, really hope you enjoyed this conversation with Thomas I would highly recommend getting his book The Inescapable Love of God it is a very even approach and holds everything in a way I think that is respectful.

Today's music is from Andy Squires. I got turned on to him from John Mark McMillan when I asked him who he was listening to and he told me this person and I was like, I don't know who that is. And then I went to Spotify or iTunes or wherever and started finding found his music and just heard so much in it that I could relate to and it's beautiful and it's haunting. It's gripping. But mostly it's truthful. And that's what I really appreciate. So I hope that you enjoyed it. You'll find links to his music from this show on the playlist at Spotify for the show and you'll find links to that at the website. Please remember to rate and review the show on iTunes.

Talk to you next week.

Finding Faith in Honesty with Danielle Kingstrom / Transcript

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Danielle 0:00

I want to find God and everything I read, I want to see that, and I typically do, that other people are just kind of vying for that same existential question we all have that we think we're going to get through discovering something in the Bible anyway, which is why we're supposed to be here and what our goal is supposed to be. So I do it with a Christian lens. I always want to try and whatever I find, go “Look, that's just like what Jesus said”. So that's my default. That's kind of what I grew up with. That's kind of what I've always been comfortable with.

Seth Price 0:52

Everybody, welcome to a special episode of the show. So there's about I don't know 40, the number varies weekly of those of you that have pitched in at a minimum $1 a month on Patreon. And if you haven't yet do that you need to, there's so many different benefits there. So there's a benefit for you to get in the show early. There's another level that gets the unedited version of the show, which is my personal favorite version of the show. There's so much that happens before I say, “welcome to the show”. And there's a lot that happens after and usually I'm recording for all of that. And oftentimes, especially with this episode with Danielle, there is like an entirely new version of stuff that happens after I hit, “all right, we're done with the show”. And then we talk about other things. And that stuff is fantastic. And then the stuff prior is also fantastic. So there are people that have heard me say that, you know, or if you've read the blog that I have on CanISayThisAtChurch.com. There's an episode with Aaron Niequist and with Alexander Shaia, where we talk about things before the show, that's all recorded. But you know, at the $5 level, those people get that version of the show. And then there's this one.

So there's a level and I forget what I've named it, I should probably come up with easier names, where I want to talk with some of the people that are the most engaged with the show. Learn about them, their faith, their story, what makes them tick. And so this will be the first of a handful of episodes like that. And so Daniel Kingstrom is one of those supporters. And so she was, I guess, picked for lack of a better word for the first one to do this version of the show. So I really hope you enjoy it. So we talked about you know, her upbringing. We talked about the shift from evangelicalism to something else we talk about fundamentalism, we talked about the military, we talk about ecology and farming and life and motherhood. We just talked about so many things.

But what I really love is on the tale end, you know, Danielle just brings it home, you know, what do we do? How do we live and she just she just nails it. Hope you enjoy a special episode.

Seth Price 3:29

Danielle!

Danielle 3:29

Hello.

Seth Price 3:30

I'm excited to talk you. Welcome to I guess the first I'm slightly nervous about this the first Patreon version of the show and so A: thank you for your support of the show and B: I've really enjoyed both debating with you and talking with you on Facebook but equally enjoyed both it's it's nice to sometimes disagree with someone on different things but then also agree with them on other things and not call each other Hitler or you know, not call each other something like that.

Danielle 3:59

Not yet anyway though right?

Seth Price 4:04

So tell me about you what makes Danielle…Danielle What is your you know you were born on this day and all the way to today don't go that far back but what makes you?

Danielle 4:15

I was born on a chilly winter night in December? No! I am what makes me me. I'm, well, what makes me busy is that I'm a mom of five. I have five spread out 19,17, almost nine, seven and the half twins. So they're spread out, I have five kids. I homeschool them. Well, I graduated one. I homeschool I live on a farm with my husband. And he's taking over his father's farm fourth generation farm here and we just kind of do our own thing. We live in a bubble and we raise livestock. We cows, we have chickens, we have sheep. My husband manages a hog site. So he is responsible for 13,000 hogs every day. Rain, shine, blizzard whiteout conditions, he's there.

So that is a demanding life that requires me to be at home on guard. So I have to cultivate something from this space in order for I think, for me to kind of branch out and contribute. And so my aim is through writing and podcasting.

Seth Price 5:37

So, couple things. So I don't really comprehend what 13,000 pigs looks like. So if you were to like try to equate that in a metaphor and say, you know, so Seth, you know, one pig equals the space of like a cedar chest. Here's what, however many thousands of pigs equal. Like what is a decent metaphor?

Danielle 5:59

Well if you take your average greenhouse that you see on the side of the road or set up at, you know, your local grocery store during the during spring, and you triple that, and then you double it, and then you double that entire space, that's one barn and that holds 1000 pigs.

Seth Price 6:18

That's big, like, put it into football fields.

Danielle 6:23

Well, I would say our nine oh, my god. Yeah, like I even know how big a football field is really.

Seth Price 6:28

50 yards wide by 100 yards long.

Danielle 6:31

Well, I would say this space of our house runs probably takes up two, then we have a separate site—so three.

Seth Price 6:39

That's a lot of pigs.

Danielle 6:41

Yeah. That's not something that I even like saying that we do, because we're so against it, you know, but it's what his dad does. And in order to take over and do what we want, we have to use this transition. So I mean, yeah, because I mean, we barely even eat pork any more. Let's put it that way

Seth Price 7:01

Yeah, well, I don't eat pork often and if I do it's like when is it maybe maybe Christmas Eve we always have like sausage and French Toast and that's like our family thing. Like go to church come back sausage and French toast.

Danielle 7:15

I like meat. We raise our own animals. So you know we do that route but in order for us to turn this farm into a more ethical and environmentally pragmatic farm, we have to start with that. Yeah, before we transition but yeah, my husband's like moving super hippie green and we envision cannabis and hemp and all of our dreams come true…

Seth Price 7:45

Is that legal or?

Danielle 7:46

Hemp is in cannabis is if you go through all the fun paperwork and I mean we have visions of like converting the farm the barns until like greenhouses and growhouses and capitalize that way.

Seth Price 8:01

Yeah, sounds good.

So I don't know if you're like me. So before, or in preparation, I had time in an airport coming back from Texas to prepare for this. And so I spent some time since we're friends on Facebook, going back in time, just randomly scrolling and letting it in, and then reading that and then doing it again. And so it seems, unless I'm wrong, that your theology has shifted somewhat over the past…I don't know I want to say 10 years because like I went back, like some time. You'd be surprised how many years back flyby when you just fling the iPhone up as fast as as it goes. I'm curious about that because that's really the itch that I always need scratch like the what has changed and why and how you see God?

Danielle 8:45

Yeah, 10 years is about when I would say my deconstructing started and that was right before me and my husband got married. My husband was okay, so growing up my belief was always in a singular God. And I grew up with the Lord's Prayer. I grew up learning to say my prayers we very rarely ever went to church, you know, unless the kid was going to be baptized or we knew someone getting married, basically. And you know, if our friends were doing the church thing, then we got to go do the church thing. When we were sick, a church, we didn't have to go to church.

And as my mom journeyed through her spirituality, she's kind of tagged us along. And whenever she was just self-educating herself on what was out there other than the Bible, or looking at the Bible in different ways, she brought us along, and so I just kind of kept going with that. And then I was lucky in my high school, I was able to actually take different religious classes. I learned about so many different religions and Buddhism and Taoism and Daoism really struck me. We had a very large Monk Community where I went to high school. And so Chinese, Cambodian, Korean, Japanese, all different cultures, all different forms of belief systems and I was just getting drunk on learning from my friends and belief. Because they were eager to talk about it they had families that were more than willing to talk about it.

And I just wanted to just every perspective I could drink up, I was drinking. And so I just kept going forward with that, up until about 10 years ago. I mean, I went through heavy practice with Buddhism. And then I went through about two or three years of Wicca and I learned so much from each but it just wasn't enough for me. I just felt like there's more.

So my husband, I met him, he was very open about his faith. (He) grew up, you know, Lutheran conservative, he was a military dude and love God love country and I wasn't in that area at the time and I kind of was like, just whatever, let's keep our stuffs separate. And he wasn't about that, you know, like one night he's like, will you pray with me and I just went, are you kidding me? You're one of those people? And he was serious and I don't know something about it. I was like, okay. And he prayed over a relationship and I thought, Okay. And then we kind of got tangled up in a really fundamental evangelical circle, mainly because of where I was working.

I worked for this steel company, and everybody went to the same church, and they had daily prayer sessions and weekly Bible studies, while selling steel coils and I was like, is this even legal? You know, I was in such a liberal mindset at the time I was hardcore democrat. My previous relationship before Cory was a hardcore Franken fan and Al Gore and I almost ended my relationship over me voting for Bush that year. So he converted me hardcore liberal, and then enter my husband who was Christian conservative.

My whole work environment is Christian conservative, and I'm like, go Hillary! And they're going…uh uh uh. You know, and so my husband sat me down and shook the liberal out of me, but it wasn't like that. It was what do you even believe he was the first person that asked me what I believed and stood for. And he was also kind of like, invited me into reading the Bible, and familiarizing myself with passages, you know, cause he could say things and I'd be like, man, I supposed to know where that's from?

So I kind of went through this starting of a breakdown, I left the liberalism and I jumped on this conservative Christian bandwagon, and I got caught up in the evangelical circles and, you know, got into this whole division and looking at other people and trying to put myself on a pedestal like, I'm the good Christian. I literally did that to my whole family. I was like, I'm a good Christian should follow suit with me. I know what I'm doing. But then right before my husband deployed, it was like, I was fighting with everybody I didn't want to be in. There was so much drama. My parents were starting to fight. And then a few years later, they ended up getting divorced, but I was caught up in the middle of it trying to do my own relationship.

Then he's deploying and now we're scrambling to get married. And everything happens so fast that it was like this big explosion. That summer my husband deployed and so much shit hit the fan over the next couple of years. And I played around with Ravi Zacharias and Tim Keller.

Seth Price 13:45

Ravi’s voice is seducing though his voices you know, it's like listening to your grandfather like you tell me more. I don't even care what you're telling me just tell me. more.

Danielle 13:55

That beautiful Indian accent on top of it.

Seth Price 14:00

He’s so gentle.

Danielle 14:02

But then after a while I started going “I don't really know what he's saying”. He just felt like he was saying the same thing over and over. Okay, well, he had referenced some other people. So I started looking into them. And so I got to Tim Keller, and then somehow I got to Greg Boyd. Greg Boyd, shook me, wrecked everything I thought because I was like, military wife, proud of my country and my husband, my husband thought for you and your freedom. You know, I took on that mentality. And I read Greg Boyd, and I was like, I was so wrong. And then I do what a lot of people do is I was like, I swung that pendulum so far back that I was like, honey, you just better condemn the military and he's looking at me going, what are you talking about? You know?

Seth Price 14:50

All this while he was gone while he was deployed.

Danielle 14:53

Now. He was back. He was back…when he got back. Okay, so I cheated on him while he was deployed.

Seth Price 15:01

I hope this isn't news when I run it…?

Danielle 15:05

No.

Okay, no, everybody knows I feel like. But that's what happened. And I admitted it within like 40 hours. I couldn't hold it out. He knew something was up. And that's when we really started acting married. And that's when we really started fighting. And that's when we really started digging.

So we just had done a lot of digging. And then my parents got a divorce after that, after he got home. And we were having kids, and we were trying to do our marriage and we were trying to rebuild and that kind of created a big shatter and divide for us with our families, because it brought up his parents divorce. And so we were just doing a lot of digging. And we happened on Greg Boyd, and what that was four years ago, maybe five? And ever since then, we've just been, more so me, I'm just kind of like pulling them along for the ride. And he's like, whatever you say, babe, I trust you, you know, or sometimes he's like, you don't know what you're talking about. But let's look at it again.

But I do the digging and the research and I lay it all out for them. And what do you think? And we talk and you know, and then I go and dig more. So that's what I've been doing. So I'm just thirsty, to keep understanding God and to keep understanding meaning and existence. And

Seth Price 16:24

So why Boyd, which book was it?

Danielle 16:28

Myth of a Christian Nation? Have you read that?

Seth Price 16:32

I've read parts of it, man. So that one is the easier to read version of his larger one. I can't remember the name of the large one either. It's on the bookshelf…no, it's not on this bookshelf. I have too many bookshelves. So yeah, the Warrior God one.

Danielle 16:53

Oh! Cross Vision.

Seth Price 16:56

There it is yet. So there's a larger one that's written with bigger words. And then the Hey, let's redo this. I need nickel.

Danielle 17:01

Yeah, yeah. His God at War and Satan and the Problem of Evil? Yeah. Holy crap. Those are big bucks. They took me forever.

Seth Price 17:11

Yeah. So I remember so I spoke with him for gosh, January of 2018, it's just been over a year. And there was a part I forget even what I asked him and he's like, says stay with me because we had the video and he's like, I can see the juice dripping from your ears. Stay with me. I was like, I can't honestly I want to talk with him again, but I'm scared too. I don't like feeling like the dumbest person in the room. And I don't think he means to he's just brilliant.

Danielle 17:40

He just thinks you're on track with him. So he's just just conversation. You know, this right here. I'm over here. Like, wait, what did you say? Let me write this down.

Seth Price 17:50

Yeah, yeah. Where are you at now then? So if you were ultra Democrat, and I don't know what type of religion to ultra conservative and I would also assume when you said Evangelical GOP, and now, I'm not overly concerned with your politics, although I could probably glean that from your Facebook posts.

I try to make my posts in such a way that people don't quite actually know who I support, which is, is a goal. That's the goal.

Danielle 18:22

That's a good idea.

Seth Price 18:25

Well, I, so one of the things Danielle that I've been struggling with is, and hopefully you'll struggle with this as well. So the more popular the show gets, the more people listen to what I have to say. Which really makes me want to say less, if that makes any sense at all.

Danielle 18:41

Oh yeah. Cause you don’t want to turn them off and make them go man I hate you now.

Seth Price 18:44

I don't like the microphone. I don't want to talk…I'm happy to talk about God and Jesus and say, No, here's where I'm at. But like when it comes to politics, I'm like, listen, here's the thing. Like there's smarter people than me, that have a better....I just tend to vote for the school board here where I live and the rest of this stuff, I don’t know.

Danielle 19:05

You don't want to have to talk about it where you might be compelled to talk about it.

Seth Price 19:11

So, no, I want to talk about it, but I refuse to talk about it. I grew up ultra conservative, and then went to liberty and was you know, gung ho for you know, the Moral Majority. And this, that and the other. And then the further I get away from that, I'm like, oh, man, I don't even recognize the person…that person like, I just, they're both broken. All will shoot all four or five parties are broken in many different ways. And I just find it easier, although slightly more offensive, to talk about God. People get angry a lot faster but at least they don't usually call me a Nazi or something else.

So what what kind of Christian would you call yourself now or is that even the best term? Like what would you say?

Danielle 20:05

Yeah, I mean, I think using the term is easier for a lot of people. So then I don't have to go. Well, you know, I mean, I, I jive with this, and I dig this. I'm mostly Christian, but I'm so open to the teachings of Buddha. And I want to find God and everything I read. I want to see that and I typically do that other people are just kind of vying for that same existential question we all have that we think we're going to get through discovering something in the Bible anyway, which is why we're supposed to be here and what our goal is supposed to be. So I do it with a Christian lens.

I always want to try and whatever I find, go “Look, that's just like what Jesus said”. So that's my default. That's kind of what I grew up with. That's kind of what I've always been comfortable with. But I don't want to make a decision on what heaven or the life after is. I try and focus on what would the Kingdom look like here? And I don't believe in hell and I can't wrap my head around God rejecting anyone. So I guess that would make me a Universalist.

Seth Price 21:16

I agree with you this. So one of my favorite things that I do when people put something on Facebook, or shoot me an email, which happens more and more is I'll just respond, especially with eschatology, and you know, heaven and hell. And I'll say, Yeah, what if I told you they're probably both metaphors? And that's pretty much the way Jesus used them. And then I don't say anything else often I don't even get a response.

But if I do, it's people like “I'm gonna pray for you”. Awesome! Do that! That would be awesome.

So you are writing a book with Matthew Distefano, what is that?

Danielle 22:14

Um, well, right now it's called “naked and known”. And what it is, is kind of our take on the non-expert, not advice, how to be married book. Naked and known” how to have an authentic, vulnerable, marriage or long term relationship. What happened was, he wrote a vulnerable article on his blog. And that really resonated with me. And so I reached out to him and wrote my own piggybacking off of his idea, and he published it for me as a guest piece and then called me and “do you want to write a book”? What‽ Our stories are so similar and I said, are they? And he said, we have a lot of stuff we can that I have a feeling we share. And so we started talking and kind of sharing a lot about what we've gone through with our marriages and really just felt like maybe if our voices spoke out it, I don't know it might help other people who are going through the same shit we are. Can I swear, sorry.

Seth Price 23:28

Yeah.

Danielle 23:30

So that's where we're at. And we're you were using great minds. I mean, it's not just our anecdote, but it is. We really like a conceptual angle of everything we both do. And he's, um, he's a theological scholar. So he wants to, you know, show through the Bible, through Scripture, what we've usually thought about what marriage is and what the roles are and show you what if it looks like this instead? And then how can we show you an anecdotal story from our own marriages to better explain this? And then what did we learn from this? And could it benefit you?

And because we've both been through some pretty what's the word overt controversial instances in our marriage, things that would usually break marriages, would end in divorce, and we've survived them. We've figured maybe we had a little bit of a missing piece to add to the puzzle. So that’s our aim.

Seth Price 24:34

So many people and I don't know what those things are outside of what you said just a few minutes ago, but I know so many people when the world that we live in now people just pull the escape hatch lever. I watched Top Gun the other day, because that's, I like that movie. And the only thing I can think of is so many people just use a bad metaphor, pull the escape hatch and they slam right into the glass and self destruct everything instead of a landing safely in the ocean, because they refuse to deal with a plane that's on fire that you can probably fix if you just settle the freak down. But they just refuse to. And that's more than marriage. I mean, that's friendships, that's politics, that's church. That's all 70,000 billion denominations of all the different churches…

Danielle 25:21

It’s expectation. That's what expectation does to us. We can't deal with uncertainty so we have these constructed expectations of how everything supposed to be and as soon as it gets a little hard, “well we're told we can do this and just get out of here.” So we do it and then we wonder why relationships don't work out and why half of marriages end in divorce because it takes work. The Buddhists say life is suffering well so is marriage-suffering, but find the joy in it.

Seth Price 25:57

Listen up kids marriage is suffering.

Danielle 26:00

It is. But it's worthy suffering

Seth Price 26:04

Another book and this just popped into my head so I don't know if you've read because I saw your stack that you posted the other day of like 20 books and maybe less than that I am curious why were some flipped around are those like for later reveal like you're gonna turn a little Lazy Susan?

Danielle 26:21

Those are the first four books I will be talking about on our podcast, Bookish.

I wasn't gonna show them to you but I was showing you all my cool colorful post it notes.

Seth Price 26:33

That’s a lot of post it notes Yeah, well you should add a book and for all I know it's in one of those reversed ones and if it is you can just wink and since nobody will ever see the video we'll just edit this out like it never happened. There's a book Without Buddha I Couldn't be Christian. I think that's the name of it, by Paul F Knitter.

Danielle 26:53

I don't have that book.

Seth Price 26:55

I think it's Paul F. Knitter. He is like the really smart person chair at Union Theological Seminary, which I feel like is close to you, isn't it?

Danielle 27:06

I don't know. I'm in Minnesota.

Seth Price 27:08

I think it actually is in Minnesota. (Update…it’s not)

Danielle 27:11

I would not be able to verify that.

Seth Price 27:13

I can't, but he's just a scholar on World Religions period,just happens to be Christian. But one of his most famous books is I think it's called Without Buddha I could not be Christian or something similar to that. But you've said enough things that I think you would enjoy it.

Danielle 27:31

Yeah, I probably would. I'm doing two courses right now on like Buddhism in modern psychology. And it flabbergasted me even to see the title of the course and I went, okay, two birds, one stone. Sure.

Seth Price 27:46

So break that apart. What is that? Buddha in modern psychology.

Danielle 27:50

Buddhism in modern psychology? Well, one of the courses is just, it kind of just shows you how the Buddhist thought kind of lines up with, I want to say your best self actualized possibility.

How do I say this? Okay, trying to think of my my course notes here. It's just a basic introduction into like, what's it called the “daca!” “duco?”I don't want even I'm gonna mess this up. Okay.

Seth Price 28:25

I won’t know if you do. I know very little about Buddhism.

Danielle 28:27

Kind of an introduction into like the tenets of Buddhism. And then kind of juxtaposed with what psychological thought. What Freud what Jung, what…what’s another dude's name that I just got into? Oh my gosh, see, I'm screwing this up again, I forget names, and correlating how Buddhist prescription can help with mental clarity, mental health, and self actualization.

And that was such a bonus for me because we're in our book we're writing about needs. You know, when you're talking about needs, you're gonna refer to Maslow's hierarchy. And, you know, Buddhism, Zen Buddhism, has some processes that kind of are in the same sphere of the, what is it like the six essential human needs of certainty, uncertainty and then the physiological needs.

And I don't know, for me, it was just super interesting because I just never really thought about putting Buddhism with psychology in the first place. I'm interested in both big time just because yeah, new stuff challenges my brain. And when you start really digging, like I started digging more in Buddhism, and I started looking more towards Carl Jung and something in Carl young drove me back towards Buddhism and I thought, Well, that was weird.

And then Jordan Peterson references both Buddhism with modern psychology, goes back to Jung, and talks about Buddhist teachings. And so yeah, it for me, I was like, as I'm learning, I'm like, maybe I'm just supposed to be learning this because it's all just interrelated with everything else that I was reading. And it's just interesting.

Seth Price 30:21

Yeah, that's good. With whatever you can say, what is your of the of the first four episodes? I'm assuming you're recording them or you already have recorded them? I don't know….

Danielle 30:31

Couple. Yep. And we still got some more to record on Monday.

Seth Price 30:33

What are you most expectant about when people hear those?

Danielle 30:36

Well, if they're just going to react off of the titles, I think some people are going to react negatively. For instance, on one of our episodes, I'll be discussing Jordan Peterson's 12 Rules For Life.

Seth Price 30:50

I haven’t read that one.

Danielle 30:53

Um, it's interesting. And one of the reasons I'm doing I read his book, I read it last year when it came out. I somehow got…I don't even remember how I discovered Jordan Peterson (it was from a podcast, some other podcast). And I, at first, didn't really like him. I thought he was cocky. And then I saw another video and I was like, Huh, and I think he was like crying in it. And I was like, weird. I didn't even think this guy even had a smile. And then I got interested in his book, and I read it. And then I made my son read it. Well, a few chapters, because it's a big book. And my son's attention span is really little, but he's 17. So I thought there were a couple of key chapters in there that I really liked. And then I started talking about Jordan Peterson. And then I was like, wow, everybody hates him!

Seth Price 31:46

When you said his name the first thing I thought is, well, this is gonna go one way or the other. I don't have much of an opinion on him, on purpose. I have refused to learn much about him.

Danielle 31:55

Yeah, well, and the only reason that I really jive with him is because there was a lot of stuff that he was saying that I was trying to speak to, to through like literally writing this book with Matthew, there was some stuff in his book that I'm like, like he gets it. And I started sharing some of that stuff. And I think I like pissed someone off when he liked it. And I was like, that's Jordan Peterson. He messaged me and he's like, “you really need to learn how to quote people better and put their names down!” And I was like, “you're mad because you like something Peterson said…okay.!” But there is such contempt.

And I get it. I mean I get it. But I think we still have to look for the good in people. And he has a lot of really incredible stuff to offer. And I just kind of want to share that perspective. And if people don't agree with me, cool, too. And I actually think that episode, we're like, contrasting it, Michelle Collins, she's going to be discussing a feminist book, like feminist Psychology.

Seth Price 32:55

At the same time or those are two different episodes?

Danielle 32:56

The same episode.

Seth Price 32:57

So how would that play with Jordan?

Danielle 33:00

I know, right. How would it play?

Seth Price 33:00

I just…you know I do know…

Danielle 33:03

I don't think Jordan would disagree. I don't know what her book is about, but I don't think Jordan would disagree. I think he's, a lot of people I think have said that he's like, anti-feminism, but I don't get that. And I mean, I'm a skeptic when I read people because I'm always looking for like, are you a racist under there; is this patriarchy stuff? I gotta be careful what I'm promoting here. Don't give me any hidden stuff.

And so I did that with Jordan Peterson, you know, like, I'm not going to just fall for this guy and then look like an idiot later. So I've really gone into it with a fine tooth comb. And yeah, he says some stuff that I'm like, “No, that's stupid.” But he says some other things that I think, I don't know, maybe if people heard this from this light, maybe they'd be like, “Oh, he's not so bad.”

I think people want to hate him because he's kind of hard to label. I can’t put him in a box. So in some of his chapters, I think is he writing.., is he pro socialism? You know?

And for me, I'm like, why is everybody socialist? It's just rubbing into me! And I don't know if I like it. I don't know what's going on here! And, like my husband's cousin reached out to me last night and was like, “it's starting to grow on you”. And I'm like, shut up! I'm not going to admit that, you know.

Seth Price 34:23

Is it?

Danielle 34:25

The ideal of it is (in) the same way anarchy appeals to me, and utopian form. Yeah, that's my kingdom.

Seth Price 34:35

That’s fair. Yeah. The part of socialism that appeals to me is and honestly, I hadn't given it much thought until the lady, I can't say her name. And I'm not gonna try the freshman congressman from New York, Alexandria,

Danielle 34:50

Alexandria Ocasio Cortez?

Seth Price 34:52

Yeah. I try to not ever talk politics, but there was the thing that she said in an interview. Let's say it was on CNN, I don't know what it was on, I don't think it was on CNN. And she basically said, you know, like, it's not really morally acceptable for people like (Jeff) Bezos to live the way that they do while some people literally can't afford insulin.

And I can really get behind that, like, I don't care about the rest of it so much. But I also am a very successful banker. I really wrestle with that. Like, there's a part of me that's like, now we should fix this. And another part of me is like, even if we do what's that mean for my career? Because I literally get paid to help people build and accumulate wealth. And I'm damn good at it.

Danielle 35:42

It’s a bit of a moral conundrum I bet, huh?

Seth Price 35:44

I didn't even go to school to do it, and I am good at it. But there's a tension. I just tunnel vision it out, I guess. So I want to ask this so I know your podcast is going to be based on you know, authors and books specifically. So If you could pick one, and they weren't gonna say no. Like you wanted to talk to the author, and I don't know if you will ever do that on your show or not, what would it be?

Danielle 36:09

Which author?

Seth Price 36:10

Yeah, like, if you had a book, you had the title in your hand, you're like, you know, I get a magic “everybody says, yes”. This is the one that I'm talking to. And this is it.

Danielle 36:20

Wow, I've never thought about that. Like, kinda like that. Who, if you could pick anyone who would you have dinner with? And I would never I would never know what to say. If I cried, but she's, she's not alive. Okay, can I not alive or do I have to?

Seth Price 36:38

I'd rather than be alive so it can actually work but that's fine. You could do it that one. That's fine. You just end up having to do two if you do that.

Danielle 36:44

Well, that's true, man I don't know.

Yeah, I do. Michelle Alexander. She wrote The New Jim Crow.

Seth Price 36:58

I don't know her or that book.

Danielle 37:00

She read the news. Have you heard of the documentary 13th that played on Netflix.

Seth Price 37:05

I loved that. I did watch that.

Danielle 37:07

So it was based off of her book, The New Jim Crow, Michelle Alexander.

Seth Price 37:11

So why her?

Danielle 37:13

She’s a strong woman and a strong voice who stood up for injustice and has stood against oppression. And I think I just want to sit in her presence and ask her if she feels like progress is being made.

Seth Price 37:37

That's a good question. Yeah, I don't know that you’ll like the answer. I've asked that question in almost every episode, and almost every time without batting an eye, they all say “Not really”. Yeah. Which is sad. That's sad. Well, it's not sad that they say not really. It's what's sad is they're like, nope, they don't have to think about it. Like that's the easiest question you've asked all day. Nope.

What is one thing that human beings can do today that would be generative in their faith? And I don't even really care what their faith is. What should they focus on intentionally that would be generative in whatever their Walk of Faith is? Be that Christianity, Buddhism, be it you know, whatever it is, be it Islam. What would that one thing be?

Danielle 38:28

To always be generative in their faith…?

Seth Price 38:30

When I say generative, I mean, to have some form of progress to do it better, either for you or for your community.

Danielle 38:39

I would say to just always let the love pour out. Keep it pouring out.

Seth Price 38:44

Would your husband agree?

Danielle 38:48

Yes, all the love.

Seth Price 38:51

I will wrap it up. So Danielle, as people listen to this, and then we know that you have a podcast coming out and you also have a book coming out where do they begin to engage with you?

Danielle 39:04

Well, you can start with bookish.cc and if you log on to that, you can subscribe to find out when we drop and then you can learn how to follow us. Rafael with Quoir, will be setting up all the fun stuff. I believe we're going to start a Facebook group similar to you know what everybody else does with their little podcast groups.

And then you can just look for me on Facebook. I'm not a “tweeter.” I don't do Insta..

Seth Price 39:36

Your “not a tweeter”?

Danielle 39:39

No, no. Look people like Twitter (and) that's fine. I can't keep up with it. It's too much so I can handle Facebook, Danielle Kingstrom on Facebook. And that's it right now. Follow along with choir on Facebook to get updates on when my books ready with Matthew and our podcast drops.

Seth Price 39:59

Good. Well, I appreciate you being here. Appreciate your time because you have a lot going on between a small city worth of livestock. (Laughter both) And then your family.

Danielle 40:13

It’s winter though this is my slow time.

Seth Price 40:18

Really, there's no pigs in the winter.

Danielle 40:20

No, well, he has pigs. I don't deal with the pigs, my son helps me deal, my older son, with the other animals. I'm a gardener, like hardcore. Like, that's my life. That's our food in the winter. So the winter I do as little as possible.

Seth Price 40:35

You're like totally self sustaining. Like you really don't have to run to the grocery store except for just a handful of things.

Danielle 40:42

Yeah, I mean, we have milking cows.

Seth Price 40:46

I don't even know what that looks like. Well, good, I'll give you back your evening. I have no idea what time it is there. But thanks so much for thanks so much for this. I've enjoyed it. I hope you've enjoyed it.

Danielle 40:56

Yeah me too! Thank you, talk to you later. Bye.

Seth Price 41:21

There we go first one in the books. I'm so appreciative of anyone that supports the show in any way. But for a handful you know the 30 or 40 people of you that you know are on Patreon. I am ever thankful and it is my privilege to do this with you. And for a few of you it is an honor to speak with you learn more about you to be deeply personal with you. I would argue to do church with you as we discuss faith in life in community with intention and so teach of you that have done that. Thank you. I can't wait to present more of these types of conversations to you.

The music today is from an artist they had a new album come out this year that have really like a lot. I don't really know what holds me. But there's something in the way that this band incorporates musicality, for lack of a better word. But the music in today's episode was from Mike Main and the Branches. You'll find links to all that in the show notes. And the tracks obviously, is still going to be are still going to be on the Spotify playlist for Can I Say This At Church, that separate feed. If you're not listening to that, and you use Spotify, and that is on you, you need to fix that it is a fantastic playlist. I am biased, but I find each song takes me back to the episodes. And the emotions of that episode is in a way that only music can.

But even if you haven't heard the episodes The songs are from the music is really good. It's eclectic. It's not all of one genre. And so it's been an honor and a privilege to incorporate those artists and go and listen, support them any way you can. I'll talk with you next week, be blessed everybody.